Posts tagged Self-doubt
The Problem with Jumping in the Deep End
The Problem with Jumping in the Deep End

I’m not writing this post to complain. I realized that this — everything being a total mess — is part of the whole experience.

I’m not failing at it, I’m doing it.

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The Final Days Before The Pacific Northwest
The Final Days Before The Pacific Northwest

Everything that I’ve been thinking about just to keep myself going for the last year and a half. The life I’ve been dreaming about is eight hours away.

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I've Named the Van, and I'm Nearly Set to Go
I've Named the Van, and I'm Nearly Set to Go

The last week before I left was just as insane, because all of that was still going on, but I also had a lot of goodbyes to get through.

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A Few Thoughts on Americanism
A Few Thoughts on Americanism

Forth of July was the one day every year that I always felt unstoppable. It made me feel empowered, one person supported and held up by millions of people, like every dream I’d every dared to entertain was as close as those fireworks, falling down upon me from the stars.

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I Destroyed Part of My Build
I Destroyed Part of My Build

I was dead set on pretending I had no van, and that I’d never been crazy enough to start this insane project, for the rest of the day.

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Construction 101: My Journey From Clueless to Clued-In
Construction 101: My Journey From Clueless to Clued-In

I don’t think I’d ever so much as touched a saw of any kind, I had no idea that 2x4 really meant 1.5 inches by 3.5 inches, and the descriptions of some of these screws sounded like gibberish to me (how can a screw be both a Phillip’s and flat? Why is it a #8 but it’s 2 inches long?).

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